Last week at Colonial Days, a redneck carnie who talked us into buying lemonade told me that I had one of those good boyfriends.

My new supervisor at work keeps telling me to just give it time and learn and to not just take a break but enjoy it, and winks at me when I’m ringing people up by myself.

Tonight an older gentleman who can be quite a creepster and was slightly inebriated, yet is still incredibly entertaining and wise told me I was a beautiful girl who should always put herself first and never settle in anything.

 

Sometimes I think I like random strangers.

It's amazing, revisiting thoughts you forgot you'd had. Emptying out my school stuff today I found a bunch of pro/con lists, wish lists, and tidbits that I forgot about entirely. Even though some of it hurts to look at, a lot is good times that are nice to remember. I should get in the habit of writing things down again.

 

My horoscope this morning read “Enjoy the good energy that's streaming all around you.” And it was right. I felt an overall good vibe today. Well, on the one hand, people can be just as you expect them to be, like when they just stare at you instead of opening the locked door you’re knocking on. But sometimes, people can be generous, like when your boy literally offers you the shirt off his back or when you need a library computer for a class and someone willingly gets up. That was a really refreshing moment today. Our math class was signed up for the computers and being the last one there, it turned out there weren’t any more available. But some kid I’ve never met offered me his and was really pleasant and smiled about it, instead of how most people would act like it was a hassle. Even if it was small, it’s nice to remember that there’s good in people.

Tomorrow is the senior trip, so excluding that there are three days left in high school ever. That is still pretty hard to wrap my mind around. As lame as it sounds, I’m probably going to be the poor sap that misses high school. Maybe not the place, but definitely the people. Some of my best friends I’m hardly going to see again, all of the people I have coexisted with and known who they were and what that meant I may never speak to again, some of the people I have pictures of from ten years ago will keep on changing. It’s like, even though we were never that close I know that the past four years, or the past seven years, or twelve years would not have been the same without them. Some of them were assholes, or scary, others were actually good people who have inspired me. The people I’ve been surrounded by have defined my high school experience. So the long and short of it is, the end is rapidly approaching and even though high school sucked, I’m glad I went through it.

But summer is coming and that means sleep and sun and work and good times. It feels like soon I’ll be able to know this is that last time I’ll ever speak to so-and-so, so I feel lucky to have the few friends I’ve gotten to know better this year, and I like knowing I get to hang onto them for a while.

 : )

This is not me looking back on my life remembering the things that have happened. This is happenning right now. This is me making it up as I go, seeing everything for the first time, knowng every decision impacts my future. It's sad that I still have to remind myself of that.
Note to self: see the big picture.
  take everything in while you can.
  live in the moment.

Love is living. And right now I love life.
I'm so high on energy drinks and swing sets right now, and spent the last five hours without a care, and I haven't laughed so much in ages. I might throw up before the night is over, but this is what it's all about.. Times like this make it worth it.

So O'Leary's house was a lot of fun. It was great to see a lot of people I haven't seen in a long time. Especially Demon. I've missed her and her hugs and her stories so much. What else? Jesus freaks, bad dancing, lots of talking. Good times. *bows to O'Leary*
And now we have break, but I have no idea if I'll have a life this week, which has left me bored and restless.

Current Music: Jared Campbell- Rest Out

Semi was amazingly fun. Everyone looked gorgeous. 
Family. Pictures. Laughing. Dancing. Spice Girls. Water. Daft Punk. Denny's. Bacon and cheesecake. 
I can hardly even remember much of it except that I was surrounded by amazing friends and this incredible boy that makes me smile. 

And then last night/this morning we got to party it up at O'Leary's. I love girls' nights. 
Things I learned last night: Cut up cheeseburgers are almost as good as mini cheeseburgers. Monster is crack and I love it. Lock the doors if there are creepy people just sitting in parking lots. "AIDS" is "Awesome." O'Leary can sleep through anything. Sunrises are pretty. Even though we almost died and now have some questionable stories to tell (you like it), the night was fantastic fun overall. We couldn't stop laughing. 
We wanted to go to bed at 8 this morning while watching Space Jam, but the cleaning lady had to show up for her job and ruin it. And then we were rudely awakened *cough*Rachel*cough* at 11:20. I admire our ability to have all three of us ready in under an hour, because next we went to Soul Full and Wegmans and Malinda's with the boys. All of which we were half awake for. Life is good.

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Shout Out Louds- Very Loud

 Woot! I just kicked this history internal assessment's ass. I am the smartest man alive.
Too bad I still have two photography critiques and a Bell Jar essay that I haven't started yet. 
But I suppose it doesn't matter. I've felt so light I've wanted to burst into song for the past few hours. And I feel like I have a lot to look forward to. Building stairs, dressing up, sleeping in, partying. Can't wait.

Current Mood: optimistic

Life is increasingly becoming more difficult and stressful than I feel it should be. I’m smart, I shouldn’t be this bogged down with so much work. I’m young, I should be happy.



I seriously cannot wait for this week to be over.

Current Mood: stressed
Current Music: The Ramones-It's a Long Way Back

 I've been on a happy high for days now. I don't know how long it will last but I want everyone else to be happy too.

Current Mood: optimistic
Current Music: My Friend the Chocolate Cake- Talk About Love